Tragedians AU

[ay_my_lord]

Continued from here.

*surprised--so seldom kissed in public, let alone with this particular flavor of desperation* You're sure you're all right?

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[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*gives a strange sort of laugh* If you don't let me ruin everything.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

Ruin ...?

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

If there does ever come a time when you don't want me any longer. I'm convinced it will be because I've driven you away. No judgment, really -- it's just what I expect.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

Oh, no. *puts down the lasagna to hold him* You wouldn't drive me away. Not ever.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*startled considerably by that* Not ever?

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

*sheepish* Not unless you wanted me to go.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

You mean like the weeks where we didn't speak to one another.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

Well, you didn't want to speak to me.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

From the aforementioned capacity of mine to ruin everything. *just leans into his arms* Even now -- you want me to be happy, and it makes me feel hurt and insecure. I have trouble responding appropriately, nevertheless helpfully.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

*strokes his hair* But you do like him?

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

Yes, I like him. Is that relevant?

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

Only if you want it to be. *another kiss* I like you very much, and you've been trying to be good about not being angry at me for how I've been ... and I guess I want you to know that I appreciate it a lot.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

I ... want to be good for you. *blushing, perhaps* That's a part of it, I suppose. There isn't a thing wrong with your nature, except when I fear it isn't compatible with mine.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

*small smile* You sound like you want this to last forever.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*definitelyblushingnow -- hides his face in Horatio's shoulder, thank you* No marriage.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

Because it's like Christmas dinner?

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

Exactly. It's exactly like Christmas dinner.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

*nuzzles his cheek* You should come live with me.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*blushblushes* ... I'm ... a terrible roommate. You could ask Rosencrantz, but he's come to think my snapping at him over chore wheels is normal.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

I think it would be all right. Nice, even. *and a light kiss* And I could show you all the time that I really do want you.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*which -- is so unbelievably tempting, you don't even know -- and feels something like security* It does sound nice.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

*then stoops to pick up the lasagna* You don't have to decide right now. We can just go back and I can kiss you a little.

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*which is also unbelievably tempting* Please.

[ay-my-lord.livejournal.com]

*then will guide him back very gently and carefully, and pack the lasagna into the refrigerator when they arrive--then will take him to bed and kiss him a bit, as promised*

[mostlyrhetoric.livejournal.com]

*and will kiss back as though there is nothing else in the world for him, just softly but until he can scarcely breathe*