ay_my_lord

*shaking a little, in his hands, and he doesn't notice it at first, he doesn't --* When -- when I told you I fell out of a tree. That was true, but -- *laughs* -- but Laertes pulled me out of the tree. And then he hit me. He was in the graveyard with Guil, and I spooked him, and it was dumb, but ... They were there because they saw dad. I want my own life, I want it with you, I want them to let go of me, my dad and my mom who says I'm the only thing she has left of dad, and because I'm his son I can't be anything else, I can't go anywhere else. I can't be my own with everything reminding me. But I wanted to forget. I wanted everyone to forget, I wanted to be my own, I wanted to be ... *struggling to still his hands, noticing them now* Or I wanted to not be.